What do you do?

What do you do when you know 
Deep inside 
In the pit of your stomach 
And squatting heavily in your heart 
This pain, this wrongdoing is ruining her

What do you do?
When you know it could be very different for her 
For them
If only you take a stand and with complete selflessness choose the downward spiral and protect her
And them
(you are so selfish!)

What do you do when all you can hear is a tragic silent scream inside 
Your head
Your chest
Your self

For knowing how it can stop
But not having any say in it

What do you do?
Despair and agonize?
Deflect and avoid?
Be numb?
Be mute?

It is not what I am
It is not how I am
It is not who I am
Nor do I want to be

What do you do?
When words fail
And you are facing an empty
Angry
Shell of a person
Unable to care for anyone else.