freaky

I am having major debates about whether I should make this blog public and post it in my facebook profile or not. All this is in my head obviously.
I covet my privacy, and the fact that there are a bunch of stuff about me and my life that most people around me are unaware of. But then it turns out that this behavior promotes loneliness and being impenetrable and I wonder why that is such a bad thing. Maybe it's because I grew up in Beirut, where everyone around you WILL make it their business how you live and what you SHOULD be doing to change what you are doing now. It was always hard for me to accept that other people's opinion of what/how I chose to lead my life WAS MORE IMPORTANT, and OMG WHAT ARE PEOPLE GOING TO SAY IF THEY SEE/HEAR THAT??!!
So, freedom has come to mean complete privacy.
But then I realize too that it is within the sharing of myself that I can affect change :: make ripples in the fabric of the universe and inadvertently change the course of some seemingly unrelated event. All that one-ness and astral matter stuff I profess about kind of seems superficial if I don't really practice it now right?
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that is the core of the debate right there.